Rohit Kumar: Insomnia in 'New India'
NB: Well written Rohit, and thank you. Nishkaam karmayog..DS
I have never had a problem with insomnia, but over the last
month or so, sleep – “sore
labour’s bath, balm of hurt minds, great nature’s second course, and chief
nourisher in life’s feast” – seems to have forsaken me. I find myself
anxious and awake till the wee hours of the morning, thinking about the
violence that is spreading across India. I find myself thinking about the brutality with which Tabrez
Ansari from Jharkhand was
dispatched from this life. I also find myself thinking about Mohammad
Akhlaq, Pehlu
Khan, young Junaid,
and all the Muslims who have been forced to say “Jai Shri
Ram” but beaten mercilessly anyway.
I think about all the rallies I have attended over the past
five years, and all the placards I have held up asking for peace and
non-violence, wondering what good they have done. My thoughts then turn to the
conversations I have tried to have with those who have lustily cheered the
birth of ‘New India’ and their utter immunity to facts and figures underscoring
all the various ways our country is in trouble. I find myself thinking a lot about Sudha Bharadwaj and wonder how she is feeling, having given her life to India’s marginalised and landing in prison for her pains.
And then, after I have exhausted myself completely and I finally start drifting
off to sleep, the smirking faces of those in power appear in my mind’s eye and
say to me, “Kyaa ukhaad loge?” - “what difference will it make?” What, indeed, does one do in these dark times?
A few days ago, after a particularly difficult and sleepless
night, I ducked into a MacDonald’s outside a Metro station to get a coffee on
my way to work, and as I stepped out, almost collided into a shoeshine boy
standing at the entrance. He asked if he could polish my shoes, a cheerful grin
on his face. I was about to give him a few rupees and move on, when he put a
grimy hand on my arm and said, “Bhookh lagi hai (I am hungry).”
Something about that gesture stopped me in my tracks.
“How many of you here?” I asked him.
“Three,” he said, pointing out to two other disheveled boys
standing a short distance away.
“Call them,” I told him, went back into the store and bought
them three McAloo burgers, or whatever it is they are called. It was a small
thing, but for some reason, the sight of three shoeshine boys sitting under a
tree happily wolfing down aloo tikki burgers brought me a
sense of calm I hadn’t felt in weeks. And as I walked away with a slightly
lighter heart, it dawned on me:
I can’t do everything
But I can do something.
And what I can do
I will...
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