Remembering
Rabindra
Rabindra Ray, who
taught sociology at the Delhi School of Economics till his retirement a few
years ago, died on January 15, 2019. For 52 years I called him Lalloo (with two
l’s). His death has led to an outpouring of memories from his friends and
students. This is one such –it’s not an obituary. I would never be able to encompass his rich
life in words.
I first saw Lalloo being led by his goatee
from his room into the veranda of Allnutt North block at St Stephen’s College
by a senior. We were neighbours, two rooms separated us. He was not exactly a
fresher, having spent a year in a pre-med course in Hindu College before
migrating to SSC to study English. As part of the Xavier’s Patna contingent, he
had a stream of Bihari visitors shouting out Lalloo! I soon became an honorary
Bihari. His circle was wide-ranging. He was a stellar actor for the Shakespeare
Society; a bridge player, and a junkie, hence an attraction for the ‘hippie’
crowd. And I know of at least three of his teachers who said he was the most
brilliant student they had ever taught.
One of his close chums was Arvind Das, the
first and last Naxalite president of SSC Students Union. When, after a trip to
Palamau in the midst of the famine of 1967, I too became a ‘commie’ (Arvind
being the prime mover), Lalloo was contemptuous. Commies tell lies, he would
say. The next two years all of us fought over communism and revolution, but it
would always end in the Science Faculty Coffee House, where we would gossip,
drink coffee, eat coffee jelly, and keep an eye out for young ladies.
In 1970, our gang enacted a lampoon called
‘India 69’, a multi-lingual spoof on Indian politics. Lalloo played many roles,
one of them Soviet Prime Minister Kosygin claiming the right to marry Indira Gandhi.
Kosygin had two hangers on: CPI and CPM. I was the latter, Shahid Amin the
former. In another, he was a sinister thug, asking a cowering man if he was a
Muslim. In the background was the election symbol of the Jana Sangh with the
caption Mein Lampf. A third featured an Indo-Australian Test at Eden Gardens,
in which he was ‘Lalloo the bowler’. Our performance brought the house down.
Soon afterwards, the CID visited our campus, asking for the author. No one was,
but Lalloo had contributed vastly, not least by his acting and sardonic style.
Lalloo stood second in the university in
his BA. He got abysmal marks in some papers, and distinctions in most. In his
MA Previous, the English department students began agitating over a newly
introduced semester system. The university’s attitude angered him so much that
one day he decided to become a revolutionary. That was Lalloo all over – once
he was convinced that the ‘system’ was incorrigible, he could change his mind
in a second. It became difficult to hold him back. He and Arvind were the first
to go underground.
But it was a shared sense of the absurd
that bound us. We founded the SSC Wodehouse Society – Lalloo was president and
I the secretary. Often he would walk into my room cackling about some
Wodehousian gag. I can still hear him repeating ‘Lemuel Gengulphus, Bart’ and
sniggering away for hours. We edited a cyclostyled rag called Spice with
cartoons on its cover, and doggerel and fantastical tales inside. No one found
it amusing except us, and a few faithful followers. Arvind used to say that the
only good Spice was Old Spice. On our part, we roared with laughter writing
them, and continued to do so for years whenever we recalled what we’d written. (NB: It was Anand Doraiswamy and Vinod Vyasulu who were the first President and Secretary of the Wodehouse Society. I stand corrected, and my thanks are due to Vinod for refreshing my memory. DS)
A sense of the ridiculous was what enabled
us to survive the Naxal underground. Even his departure for a revolutionary
contact address in North Bihar was tinged with hilarity – he was dropped off at
the Old Delhi Railway station by comrade Ajay Singh, but late that night Ajay’s
window was hit with some gravel. It was Lalloo, who had fallen off the train.
Maybe it was an omen for the fate of the revolution.
The only time we met during ‘UG’ days was
in Purnea, in December 1971, in the midst of the Bangladesh war. Few would have
recognised him at the Purnea bus stand–Lalloo was just another North Bihari
peasant: white vest, indigo lungi and drooping moustache. We drank toddy,
walked through the lanes and slept on a wooden takht. We decided he ought to get out: there was no police warrant
out on him, and he had a nasty lung infection. And we were disgusted with the
CPI (ML)’s dogmatic adherence to the Chinese line over the Pak army action in
East Bengal. It took me some months to opt out as well. Lalloo went home to
Kanpur. I visited him there once; it was the first time I met his dear mother.
In 1972, I went to the UK for six months.
When I returned, I stayed with Lalloo and Achintya (Monju) Barua in a garage in
Tagore Gardens in North Delhi. I was canvassing permission to complete my MA;
and god knows what he was up to. Monju was trying to pass his Hindi subsidiary.
The garage was like a shelter for vagrants and unspeakably dirty. I was
considered the Stalinist, always chasing comrades to behave. I once flushed
their stash of grass down the toilet, which caused much consternation. I would
wash his clothes, but he refused to wear clean clothes. ‘Dirt is mans natural
element’, he would say. When we finally left the garage we went to a
hole-in-the-wall photo studio in Kamala Nagar. The seat was tiny, so we sat
with one of us in the middle and the other two straddling the bench sideways,
looking over the middle one’s shoulder into the camera. We looked like a bunch
of unemployed pickpockets.
In the late 70’s Lalloo underwent a
psychotic break. He was ailing for some time. Some comrades visited him and
noticed there was a problem. In the winter of 1977, he came to Madhu Sarin’s
and my place in Defence Colony – we climbed up the stairs one night to find him
standing by himself in the dark. It was a jolt to see him like that. He wanted
to stay ‘a couple of days’ – and ended up staying over four months, nearly
driving us crazy as well. We were scared to leave him by himself, but also
begged him to stay awhile with other friends, but he refused. Finally his
family took him away for treatment.
We last met in Siliguri district in
November 2015. It took me two years to convince him to accompany me and Monju
to Naxalbari. We had never been there, even though the place meant so much to
us. (Lalloo had published his thesis under the title The Naxalites and their ideology, in 1988. As far as I know, it was
the first characterisation of Naxalism as an essentially nihilist doctrine). We
wanted a photo of us in Naxalbari. I travelled to Bagdogra with my friend
PritaTrehan. Monju had picked up Lalloo from Darjeeling, and we all met at the
airport. We got into the cab and said chalo
Naxalbari. The driver thought we were nuts. But we finally located Kanu Sanyal’s
house in Sephtulajote village – Lalloo knew that it had been converted into a
memorial. We spent two hours chatting with a comrade who was bemused to see us.
I posted a small
account of our visit on my blog. It was the happiest I had seen Lalloo in a
long time. Being at home and looking after his mother had done him a world of
good.
Lalloo could laugh at himself and that was
what made his company so enjoyable. Years ago, he gave me a book of
philosophical essays. One was called The
Futility of Theory. Since his ruminations would go on for two or more pages
without a full-stop, the next time I met him, I said yaar, you made your point
by the middle of page two. Theory is futile. He began his usual cackle. In one
of our last conversations, he told me his new philosophy book in Hindi had been
published. I asked him if there were riots outside the book stores; and we both
laughed for several minutes.
It doesn’t sound right to say ‘rest in
peace Lalloo.’ Always provocative and mischievous, Lalloo was never at peace,
nor did he let anyone else be so. I loved him as a brother. Goodbye Lalloo, you
always inspired all around you and made the world shiver. Till we meet again my
friend. Adieu
This poem was sent me in 1996 by Laloo
